STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS THOUGHTS ABOUT MACBETH

As I read up on Macbeth (and I'll be honest, Sparknotes to help decipher some of this language I still don't fully understand) the biggest thing I feel is an impending sense of doom throughout the entire play. Since you're given the plot in the beginning, it feels less like you're watching this happen in real time, instead it feels like you are watching an event play back while these witches narrate it. The way they know what will happen and talk about it is very eerie and surreal. It's almost like cliches in horror movies - you know as soon as she looks into that mirror, or turns around that corner, something will happen. And knowing the director, (or playwright), also helps get a familiar but distant sense of what will happen. Overall, the feeling of this higher power / impending doom feeling really adds to the narrative of the story. I would enjoy it more if it was more accessible though.

thoughts over

BUT WHAT ABOUT MY MASTERPIECE?

My masterpiece, sadly, is still in my head. But that is not just empty space, it's filling my brain to the point of exploding. I have so many ideas overflowing that I don't know where to start. I've researched all of them, thought heavily about all of them, attempted some of them, and still I feel like I don't know where to move with it. I don't want to limit myself to just one because I know I would get sick of that, I want to combine them all. If I had one way to describe a perfect job title, It'd be a renaissance man of creativity. I want to help create things that better people's lives, whether it be in a technical sense, a creative sense, or an entertainment sense. I want to create things that will make people smile, or cry, or both. I've thought of different people I could ask to help as mentors, but many are too large and untouchable to get. I can't think of anyone locally who shares this vision, but I know it's out there. The closest thing I've been able to find is DONDA, and even that is reclusive and untouchable. I've been thinking of many ideas for a masterpiece, many being extremely ambitious too and waiting on starting any them is only making it worse. Between work, reorganizing my room, reading and researching my interests, keeping up with social medias, and of course school, it's been very busy. I hope this weekend or next will be a stepping stone in the right direction, because I'll finally have a bit of free time. I also become an adult one week from today. Scary.

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Lady Macbeth, from the Macbeth's point of view, seems like someone to turn to for harsh and straightforward leadership. Macbeth sees that she is a leader and a masculine type. To us, she seems like a manipulator that uses her skill not to help her husband, but to force her husband to do her bidding. Things she wants to happen get done through him, and he sees it as his own free will that was influenced by her, instead of her will being forced into him. Love really does make some blind.

Pro-procrastinator

I am really bad at scheduling things and finishing them. I started to work on this last semester and did pretty well but relaxing over break made me stop again. I think without a direct response from work, I tend to not finish / forget a lot of things. I could start something and be doing it well, get distracted, and not come back to it for days. I have thought about different ways to help me remember, ie setting alarms, sticky notes, notes on my phone, all of them have not yet helped. I am determined to find something though, because this backlog of work is only going to get longer the more I forget to finish it.